Ok friends and family… i know all who read my last post were left… concerned to say the least. I just want to thank you all so much for the amount of love… nothing but love expressed to me over my sin and lack of faith concerning my relationships with people. I want to also let you know about what God has done through me since that post… Wow… God is good… i am just overwhelmed with the amount of grace and love the Lord has for me… his weak child. His strength truly has been made perfect in my weakness. It’s so funny because my life is EXACTLY what i have been praying to God for my whole life… i wanted my life to be different, challenging, meaningful, purposeful, exciting, adventurous, beautiful, captivating, and something to run hard and fight for. lol yep, that’s always been my prayer and God has made it so! I look back at all my MANY but short relationships with people and although i was always very sad to let the friendship go i knew it was in God’s hands and for the best… which of course made me mad at God for that short moment of loneliness. But i sit here today as i look back i am in AWE and WONDER at every beautiful and magnificant thing i gained from each and every relationship. i can specifically name each person and tell you a detailed description of how my time with that person has touched me and changed me for the better or prepared me for what God wants me to do with that new knowledge and revelation. I don’t know if the average person who has had the same group of friends in their lives their whole lives and no one else, if they can say the same thing?? I have been exposed to more corners and secrets and God’s working hands on this earth because of all of these short but deep relationships with people from ALL over the globe, from all different backgrounds and beliefs and talents and wisdoms and gifts… with people i am in the presence of God himself! all of these people put together paint a beautiful, take your breath away kind of picture of who God is. He did in fact create us, his children, in the image of Himself!! SO cool. and I, Kate Cushing, am being tossed around in order to catch a glimpse of His face and His character. Life is so short, i am grateful now that He is using this short time to expose me to as much as possible. The world wants me to desire comfort… well, i don’t want to be comfortable… even when it comes to my relationships… i always want to be used, challenged and abused for His purpose. as much as i complain, the pain is only for a moment then it’s time for me to have faith and ask God what he has for me next!
